New Year's Goal: "be more awesome than last year"

I showed up to D1 yesterday. I had not been since early December. I could not find a parking spot. I was like what the heck is happening. Then I walked inside and MY gym had become filled with all those "weight loss resolution people". I was bitter at first. I even asked Josh- what is going on. Then after running for a few minutes during warm up I realized that I needed to be supportive of my fellow gym friends because the fact is majority of them will stop going and I want people to be healthy and feel better. I missed working out. I can't believe I said that. But, I do and I like feeling slightly sore. We have discussed switching gyms to somewhere closer to home but, I am not ready. I am thankful my husband let's me do what I am comfortable with. I laugh as I write. The gym for athletes is wear I am most comfortable. 

It's Thursday. Six months ago, I woke up with buyer's remorse. Surgery day (6 months plus 1 day ago) was in fact the worst day of my entire experience. I am so thankful for my husband and my mom for being my support that today. I had a bad headache the day of surgery that the strongest of meds wouldn't touch. I went into the surgery and asked to be put to sleep so I wouldn't cry from the pain from my headache. My surgery was scheduled for 1ish and didn't happen till 6ish. My family has a history of sensitivity toward anesthesia and I was no different. I finally woke up and remember things about 5am the next day. My mom can tell you stories about my "recovery".  I tell you this because my story is unique- everyone has a different experience. But, I know that I had to have pain in order to have progress. Funny, how that works. 

Lots of folks want results without change. I am the same way. I stopped working out because I got busy with the holidays and work. I noticed that while I was "seeing progress" my skin was getting wrinkled in places. Believe me, I have accepted wrinkles will come but, let's minimize it. 

I started a vision/action board many years ago. I saw on mindtools.com this quote "The physical act of writing down a goal makes it real and tangible. You have no excuse for forgetting about it. As you write, use the word "will" instead of "would like to" or "might."  This is our families vision board. It's by my bed. Here is a good link about creating vision boards. You can google action and vision boards to learn how to make one. One of my goal is to 8 pounds a month to meet my ideal weight. Another goal is to do some video blogging. This is a stretch for me- I hate my voice on video. Some of my goals are simple and attainable- some are outlandish like, winning the lottery.  

Of course, simply writing something down dooes not make it happen. There has to be action on your part. You can do it. Lots of people think goals or new year's resolutions are cliche. I understand it but, I refuse to think that way. I am worth the change and the effort and so are you. 

My 6 month monthly update will be coming soon. For now, I am celebrating my success from 2013 (94 pounds). As of today, 97 pounds. 

2013 Success! 

Why I skipped Christmas Cards this year

I didn't send out 1 Christmas card this year. I didn't really have a great family photo and figured no one would miss us this year. But, I missed us this year. So, here is my electronic greeting card. A picture can't describe what 2013 meant to John and I. 

Our family's hardest moment of 2013 was in February when Maddie went into septic shock and we spent some time in ICU. It was a bleak time for us. I (Rhonda) remember a few days later, I sat in her room and we waited for her blood pressure to basically come back. It was a moment where God showed us that this child is not ours-she belongs to God. 


Maddie survived. She was in the hospital a lot but, now she is doing well now. Life is different. She lives in Pediatric Nursing Home Care in North Little Rock. We thought her coming home was going to be an option. But, we have learned that her health is fragile and can turn on a dime. She needs full time nursing assistance that John and I can't provide. The great news is she is happy and doing better than she has done in a while. She is in a protected environment and she is not exposed to much. She still wins the hearts of many with her killer smile. Maddie has sotos syndrome and with additional diagnosis of severe sinus problems, epilepsy and developmental delay.

Lauren is 9 and she has continued to thrive. Lauren has autism. Lauren joined i Can! Dance team this year. She loves dancing!She is still quite the electronics guru! She is currently learning about videoing (everything!) on her iPad. Lauren counts to 30. She knows her ABC's and with the use of her talker she is on a preschool level. Lots of improvement. Lauren participated in Special Olympics Bowling this year! She is happy and loves to travel with us. Lauren attended Camp Barnabas and Camp Aldersgate this year.

If you read this blog, you know I had weight loss surgery in the summer.I also started back to school and will finish in Spring 2014. Surgery, along with working out and therapy has improved my quality of life so much! John joined community band. He enjoys his music. We returned to Seattle to see John's family this past year in the Spring. We enjoyed the trip and needed the time away. John spent some time in Seattle again before Christmas too. 

We have a lot planned for 2014 including mailing out Christmas Cards. Till then follow this blog and keep in touch with the Bensen's.

My brother and I lose weight in 2013!

We have had a lot of family time recently. Thanksgiving, Wedding extravaganza, Christmas and the actually wedding was all in the past few months. I am not complaining. It’s a special time and it’s been fun. A year ago during Christmas I shared with my family that I was going to have weight loss surgery.  Many folks do not share because of the “back lash” or lack of support but, I felt that this battle needed my family's support and I didn’t want to mislead anyone. My family was supportive but, my brother will tell you he was apprehensive. I shared with him that losing weight is a journey that lots of people take- some of us will succeed and some will fail. All of us will take different roads to get our results. No road is “easy”. My brother was 298 pounds last Christmas. He really didn’t have room to judge and he knew it. Being fat sucks. 

So, he left that Christmas and made some decisions. He started working out, changed his eating and got with his PCP to help create a plan for him to lose weight. I think he wanted to show me he could do it. He did it. He lost over 75 pounds. He looks fantastic.

My Brother Kyle and I lost a combine total of  170 pounds in 2013!

The New Year is a time when lots of people make goals and jump on the bandwagon to lose weight. I support getting healthy. Some people need medication; some people need weight watchers, some people need to get moving and some people need surgery. I support it all. My life has greatly improved..

 Everyone says I look better but, more than anything I feel so much better. I was in bad shape a year ago. I was weighing in at over 350 pounds. My feet hurt so bad- I was sick on antibiotics 3 times last November and December. My breathing was labored and I was developing asthma. I had no energy and felt exhausted much of the time. My life was leaving me in the dust. I was really too fat to work out. Let's be honest I had a big amount of weight to lose!

Today, I do not diet. I had a lifestyle change. I did use phentermine for 6 months and lost 13 pounds. I know many people who lost weight with phentermine, hormone injections or shakes. I think I would have been more successful had I done a few things differently. Weight loss plans like weight watchers are proven to be a great tool. Working out is also a great tool. All these things are tools. Tools to help you be healthy and feel better. These tools do not work if you don’t make a decision to eat better.

My brother and my family are supportive. I am blessed without a doubt! They know that losing weight is hard and it's challenging. It's a mental game as much as a physical game. I didn’t just have a surgery and lose weight. Therapy along with working out and some other life styles changes was important key to my success. 

You can have a getting healthy story like Kyle and I have by next Christmas. It’s not going to be easy but, I promise you it will be worth it. I guess it’s only fitting that my brother gave me scales for Christmas. He knows I will not be offended and use the precious gift. It’s all fancy and tells me I have not drinking enough water. Ha!  

Losing weight isn’t easy. If it were, everyone would be doing it. The most important thing you can do for yourself today is to live a healthy, active lifestyle. Remember, weight loss is not a race but a marathon. Our bodies, our minds, our lives are meant to be filled with balance. Learn from us and get motivated to change your lifestyle in the New Year.  Cheers to 2014 and to your life being better.

the holidays and weight loss

Well, the month of December has been fast and furious. Physically, emotionally, mentally and personally just busy and too much going on... This is life! I feel like my weight loss is creeping. I am ready to meet goal. I am within 5 pounds of losing 100 pounds and dang it is being really slow. I want to bitch and complain but, I know that deep down I am doing great. I am successful. I feel amazing. But, the devil is playing games with me. Maybe I am destine to only lose 95 pounds. Then my family says uh, Rhonda 95 pounds in 5 months - is great!



Confession: I had 3 sips of  wine. It didn't hurt, I didn't die and I wasn't drunk. All things people warn you about. I also had several sips of soda. It didn't hurt. I didn't die. I still lost weight in spite of my few sips. Again people told me horrendous stories about soda. I had birthday cake for my sisters birthday. I was sick in the bathroom for 2 hours. I couldn't sleep. Death sounded good. NO MORE BIRTHDAY CAKE. It's the holidays people bring you candy, cookies, chocolate covered pretzels... All things that are tasty in moderation. I could live on white chocolate pretzels.  John (my hubby) traveled to his moms this month and brough back Macy's Franco chocolate. It was delish. Do you know that those little bitty chocolates have over 50 calories a pop. No thank you.   Working out has been challenging due to work, life and holidays. I will get back to it after the holidays. I miss it!!  I am struggling with my ADHD meds. I am not a fan of this patch. I am not used to it.



Results..
I have lost  over 12 inches in my chest (underneath the boobies). I have lost over 10 inches in my hips and belly. I have lost over 7 inches in every other part of my body.  I have essentially lost the weight of one of my kids.  I was "busting" out of a 26/28 in July and I am wearing a 18/20. I have not worn an 18/20 in this decade!!! As you know in January at my weight in I was 353. Today, I am in the bottom of the 250s.

Losing weight with or without surgery over the holidays is tough! But, I am hear to say, I am not done. Not even close. We are almost to the half way point. It's going to be hard but, I know together with my friends and family I can do this!!!! Thank you for following my journey with my family and my weight loss. I hope your Christmas is blessed and you are able to find the real meaning of Christmas. (Hint: it's not food or presents!) 

Love, 
Mama Bensen and her crazy family